I've realized in the last couples of weeks, that I have a huge issue with pride. And it's not all that easy to change.
I've started to see that I think pretty highly of myself, in my personal life and also at work. I have gotten into trouble thinking that whatever I do is great and that no one else needs to check up on what I'm doing.
I've started to see that I'm wrong.
In the past, I've had some issues that have only affected me and my relationship with God. An issue with pride, that involves my relationship with others. When I brag about what I'm good at, that turns people off. When I tell my husband he made a mistake and act like I never do, that makes him upset. When I jump ahead at work and take control when I'm not supposed to, that makes my co-workers angry.
What's also difficult about an issue with pride is that I don't often notice when I'm doing it. When it's a conscious sin, I obviously know when I'm committing the error. Little prideful moments sneak up, and I don't realize I have done something wrong until I have to deal with the ramifications.
That's where God steps in. I know that God wants me to deal with my pride and overcome the temptation to do it in the future. I can't overcome the issue without realizing when I'm doing it though, so I have to rely on God to show my as the temptation for pride comes up.
This is going to take some time. I hope that people around me are forgiving enough to be patient as I learn to humble myself one day at a time.
